CXIII

I'm starting to feel old for the first time in my life these days. Well not feeling OLD per se. I know better than that but being conscious of the fact that I'm getting older. Like when I was 18 I didn't stop to think that only seven years earlier Star Wars came out or whatever. I still feel like I can do anything. I still feel like driving around drinking beer with no particular destination in mind. I don't feel 18 but 24, she once described the family as an Atreus clan in which fathers castrate sons and mothers smother them with love in which mothers cast out daughters and daughters defame mothers in which brother harms brother and brothers rise against sisters just as sisters rise against brothers in which daughters are disowned and daughter-in-laws are pushed aside in which men are feminine and women masculine and in which a great-grandchild nibbles of the liver of another;